Showing posts with label #my will. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #my will. Show all posts

23/01/2025

My Will





My Will





Deep in the night, 
a nameless bird sings sadly from a tree.

Long ago, when I was studying 
in a mountain temple, steeped in solitude, 
the hoots of an owl and the gurgle of a flowing stream 
would sound throughout the night. 
Those lonely times of solitude have changed to longing.

There was a time when countless thoughts boiled over in my head; 
a time when I was chased by my circumstances 
but did not achieve anything.

Now with hindsight, I see it is fortunate 
I did not fulfill any of my big ideals. 
I was not a great person, 
and I lived ridiculing myself; 
disliking, ignoring and cursing myself; 
telling myself that I was the one who was wrong. 

Perhaps this is why I did not have much to repent. 
I was not great in any way 
so I was humble and I worked hard.

As a result, I lived well 
compared to the days of scarcity in my childhood.

Of the years that silently passed, during the time 
when I first started teaching Truth in Mount Gaya, 
I again heard the cries of that owl every night; 
the owl that had struck a chord in my lonely heart.



Everyone who sought me out each came to me 
with fifty thousand thoughts.

As they shed these fifty thousand agonies, 
they showed the forms of their minds 
in fifty thousand different ways.

Only then did I realize man is uglier, dirtier, 
and infinitely more vile than I was.

When I had scolded myself, 
telling myself that I was dirty, ugly, 
and the worst person in the world, 
it had been an unknowing repentance.



With the title of do-in, I awaken people.

I cannot describe the joy I felt 
when after many nights meditating together till dawn, 
those countless people, who had laughed and cried 
within their fifty thousand agonies, enlightened to the Truth. 

I had also felt happy when I escaped from the grave 
and came out into the world, 
but I had more joy in their enlightenment than I had in my own,
which was boundless each time a person's consciousness
changed from falseness to Truth.

It was the first time in the world
people were truly becoming enlightened,
and is the founder,
the fact that people were actually achieving Truth 
was tremendously moving.

People's fifty thousand agonies decreased 
as they moved up through the levels, 
but there were those who tried to achieve Truth 
inside the framework of their selves, 
which is something man grimly holds onto until the end.

Those whose false selves tried to enlighten to the Truth, 
were unable to ignore their false selves or progress further 
and ultimately did not achieve Truth.

However, those who were like bears and did not give up,
those who were constant and had thankful hearts 
are still meditating and are close to completion.

Time flew by silently,
and since then twelve, or thirteen years have passed.

I started teaching Truth in my mid-forties, 
but now my hair has turned grey 
and my youth and energy have vanished.



I am entering into old age;
I am becoming a wrinkled grandpa, 
with grey hair and ground-down teeth.

My body does not move as I will it to, as it did in my youth.

The world is wide,
but I am living a human life with only seventy to eighty years, 
and there is so much left to do in the world.

So regardless of whether it is day or night, 
all my time is dedicated to teaching people Truth.

My mind is busy, so busy, with the constant thought 
that people all over the world must be awakened; 
and I am waiting and waiting, 
for the day when all people have become complete, 
and all people are able to live.

It is my hope that before I die, 
Truth will be spread all over the world 
and everyone will be resurrected as Truth.

I pity people who live and die without meaning or purpose; 
it is heartbreaking.

It is my will to work hard 
so that even one more person may live.



Reference: The great teacher Woo Myung's book "Stop Living in this World Go to the everlasting world of happiness live there forever"