Why am I concerned about how others see me?
I reflected on this and realized that
I was trapped in the words others said about me.
When my mom's friend visiting
our house would say,
"You're such a good girl,"
then I would feel trapped in those words
and try to be a good girl.
Similarly, when friends at school would say,
"You're so mature,"
I would feel trapped in those words
and try to act mature.
Now, I regret it.
I regret the days when I tried to live
as the "me" that other saw.
Through meditation. I found my true self.
By letting go of the me perceived by others,
by letting go of the idealized version of myself,
by letting go of the socially desirable me,
only my true essence remained.
Because I am just me, beyond concepts
of good and bad, right and wrong,
because I am not swayed by other's words.
because I am not pretending
to be someone I am not,
existing as myself is as comfortable
as wearing fitting clothes.
I'm happy now as I am.
